aku dan papi

do you have a good relationship with you father ??
if you do. you must be so blessed .
and how about me ?
i don't .

yeah ,, i think it will be a "PE-ER" banget di idup guw .

ampe sekarang hubungan guw sama bokap ya gitu gitu aja ..

gak ada sama sekali komunikasi . sekali komunikasi, ya gitu deh : berantem .
males jadinya guw juga ..


mungkin karena attitude guw yang beda banget sama ade2 guw .

guw ngampus, terkadang suka pulang malam .
guw sering nginep di entah berantah : tempat temen2 guw .
guw sering ngomenin apa yang bokap guw lakukan which is itu gak ada komentar membangun .
pokoknya intinya, dari semua anggota guw, guw yang paling

BRENGSEK ..















duh, gak tahu juga ya ..
mungkin yang punya nasib sama kea guw bakal bisa ngerasain .
kemarin aja, guw bener2 bisa ngerasain gimana guw jauh banget sama sosok ayah ..














i'm crying while sitting beside him ..
miris sih memang.
tapi terkadang guw juga nyesel ga bisa jadi anak yang bokap guw harapin
tapi guw terkadan juga mikir kalau didikan dia terlalu konvensional dan terkesan egois ..




ok , i will continue this posting next time ..

SINOFEST IX

My friend shot a few photos and i took it from my account facebook ..
just a few of that ..

selamat jalan kekasih ..

WADUHH .
udah lama gak ngeblog
sekalinya ngeblog,,
agak2 ngeblue gitu ..
*kata vava

today i lost my best binder ..
my 3-term-binder .
disitu ada berbagai catetan ..
LENGKAP !!!!!!!!!!
APALAGI SEJARAH CINA ..
dari term1 ampe sekarang ..
dan semua itu ilang ..




gambar2 guw disitu juga. semuanya..


pliss ..
untuk orang yang suka gambar atau mencintai sesuatu kegiatan pasti tahu banget rasa kehilangan hasil karyanya itu ..
aduhhhh ..
design2 guw disitu semua ..
gambar idya lagi tidur pas kelas sejarah juga disitu . hahhaa

tapi sekarang .. emang harus direlakan ..

layaknya lagu rita effendy ..
yang berjudul ..
selamat jalan kekasih ..

"Berpisah denganmu

T'lah membuatku semakin mengerti

Betapa indah saat bersama

Yang masih selalu ku kenang

Reff I: Selamat jalan kekasih

Kaulah cinta dalam hidupku

Aku kehilanganmu

Untuk selama-lamanya

Cukup sekali

Kau lukai hati ini

Tak ingin terulang kembali

Kau tinggalkan ku sendiri

Kembali ke: Reff I

REff II: Aku cinta padamu

Aku masih menyayangimu

Walau hanya dihati saja

Untuk selama-lamanya

Kembali ke:Reff I

Aku cinta padamu

Aku masih menyayangimu

Walau hanya dihati saja

Untuk selama-lamanya

Aku kehilanganmu

Untuk selama-lamanya"





MIRISSSSSSSSSS ...

KANSAS tak pernah seasik ini ..

kansas , kantin sastra, biasa disebut kancut (kantin kerucut) karena bentukny yang menyerupai kerucut .. *yg ini kayakny g usah dsbut ..

biasany, menjelang jam 12-1, kansas mengeluarkan asap2, bau2, yg tentunya membuat org ingn makan . dsamping murah, bangku yg dsediakan juga lumayan banyak . tapi amat dsayangkan, kansas pd jam2 istirahat, mbuat gw agak mager bwt duduk . panas ! maklum dsni g ad AC layaknya kape yg ad d sblh gdg4 ..

namun kali ini ..
jam 9.43, kansas bner2 ngbwt gw untuk mager kemana mana .. bner2 ngebwt angin sepoi2 .. bner2 memantulkan aura positif untuk memulai kegiatan .. dan bnar2 mbwt gw untuk ngeblog lwt hp !! pdhl kmrn br ngeposting ..
cuaca blm panas sepanasny depok ..
bener2 asik bwt blajar ..

ahh .andaikn ni hp bs upload poto suasana kansas .. bkal gw kcy lyt deh ptonya .. huff .

eager .

guw lagi sangat ingin merombak habis blog guw ..
udh punya konsep sih ..
maksudnya dirombak abis ya gak sampe kea blog blog independen gitu ..
tetep pake themes nya blogger tapi dengan ciri khas guw .
adalah yang guw pengen edit2 dikit ..


itu sih baru pikiran guw ..

bener2 eager mau ngerubah ..
bosen ..

anyway ..
gak tahu kenapa, belakangan ini mood guw lagi gak asik .
males buat becanda ..


dan belakangan ini, guw pulang malem terus..
karena mau nonton olimbud .
emang kerasa banget si gak bisa belajar, pasti langsung tepar ..
ditambah guw lagi minggu2 buat uts .
alhasil, guw kagak belajar dan hanya mengandalkan waktu di pagi hari buat baca2 .
fiuhh ..

ternyata capek juga punya rutinitas seperti ini .


zzz ..

...

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

autis, terima saja..

ok, i've already known that my neighbour has two children and unfortunately, they have an autistic children..
yeah.. boy and girl..

everyday, the two extraordinary sream to express their feeling. more over, when night comes .. they scream louder . i dont know what kind of words that they want to express . sometimes its lil disturbing me..
tp skr gw sadar kok .. smw pny kelemahan dan smw harus pny rasa tenggang rasa . thats why we learn ppkn subject wkt sekolah dasar ..
mencoba menanamkan rasa sling memiliki satu sm lain sbg bangsa yg bermoral, dmulai dr lingkup yg terkecil yaitu keluarga ..

back to topic,

the extraordinary children must be so thankful for having a great parents . they take care of them . they are so daring and inspiring ..
but a big no no for their grandmother ..
keany nenekny masih blm bs trima klw 2 cucu mreka autis ..
pdahal jujur .. the girl is so cute, pretty dan dy seumuran sm gw ..

yang mw gw bahas .. my mother and I had a talk about this ..
she said,

'anak itu amanat tuhan, linda klw dkasih harus trima2 aj, djaga, jgn suka ngeluh.. klw emang Allah ngehendakin suatu saat linda dkasih anak yg autis, trima aj, jgn ngambek sama Allah .. pasti ad hikmahny knp linda dkasih spt itu.

harus sabar ngadepinny.. mgkn pertama tama bakal kaget.. tp klw udah biasa mungkin bakal enakan..'




wkt itu gw blg sama nyokap klw someday gw dapat anak yg autis.. tp stelah dgr penjelasan nyokap, gw jd tau dan insya4wi bs nerima smw dgn hati lapang..


and i hope u do the same as mine..